January 2011
48 posts
How can I feel this fat all the time?
size000:
People tell me I’m not. BMI says I’m not. But I say I am. It makes life really fucking difficult because of it too.
This week was, without a doubt, the worst week of...
It sucked.
The end. xoxo Z
I woke up to a dark, sad day. The clouds hovered over the sun, blocking it’s radiant sunshine. I walk through life feeling invisible and insecure. I don’t feel like I should be here, like I belong. My mind is racing, My palms sweating And all of a sudden, the rain starts to pour. It rained like it has never rained before; drenching the world. My world. Then I look up and find that the world...
Deprived
Deprived. Empty. Alone. Cold.
All I’m asking for is to be penetrated, filled up with pleasure and passion. Touch me, hold me, fill me up with all of you. That’s all I’m asking for.
No, I must admit this is a lie. But in these dysfunctional moments of mine, that’s all I can think of. That maybe if I’m filled in this way, that maybe in the sigh of his release, his body will say the words I crave to...
All Echelon reblog. I want to know how many of you...
I'm going to sound so weird saying this but,
sometimes I think up conversations in my mind with other people, sometimes close friends and stuff. It’s hard to explain. Imagine having a conversation with one of your friends, well I think of them in my mind even though they’ve never happened.
yeah…I am weird.
1 tag
Enemy of mine, I'll fuck you like the Devil.
You know those stuff you see in movies,
The stuff that you never expect to actually happen to you or that you would be a witness to?
Things like shootings, rape, murder, war, car accidents, diseases, threats, etc.
Well, all of those things have happened to family members of mine, and a very recent one, as recent as last night, was a murder. My moms cousins’ son got stabbed to death by gang members while he was shoveling the snow...
W O U N D E D
I hate this helplessness. Lately I’ve been feeling like I’m drowning in this neverending, lonely, water and i cant seem find an escape. My breath shortens until I take so many breaths but feel like I’ve taken none at all. Feeling this way hurts. I feel empty and alone. I have no time for myself, all my time is devoted to making others (mostly my family) happy. The last time I enjoyed life was last...
“you felt no reality, no knife of sorrow cut your intestines to bits. only a...”
– Sylvia Plath. (via bornloser-)
4 tags
01/16/11
I have yet to talk about this day. I think the reason I held it off for a while is because I did’t think I could explain something so amazing in a post, but here’s my attempt.
3:00 PM, that’s when it all started. I got a phone call and he said he was waiting outside. I got SO nervous, more nervous than excited. The car ride felt never ending. We talked and laughed. Finally, we...
4 tags
If you know the harsh reality of the world, do you ever feel it crush you?. How can we live so comfortably when so much is going on in the world, and we do nothing. Just watch others suffer, see the bad things and don’t do a thing. I hate it, when i look at my life and see all that i have and I’m still not happy. I have everything i want and i still am not motivated to live. Why is it, you can...
suckerlove-:
Placebo - Holocaust
your eyes...
amq:
Send us a blindfold, send us a blade, Tell...
“The earth is a very small stage in a vast cosmic arena. Think of the rivers of...”
– Carl Sagan (via thechocolatebrigade)
“DJ: “What’s the craziest tabloid thing you’ve ever seen about yourself?”
Jared:...”
– Jared Leto in an interview. (via echelonkid30)
4 tags
I hate how
..people are constantly being ridiculed for the most absurd things. We are who we are and there is no need what-so-ever to taunt someone based on looks, beliefs, or even friends.
Personally, I think that everyone is beautiful no matter what. Fighting it doesn’t necessarily help either. Arguing with a fool proves there are two. Keep that in mind. If you truly believe that you are beautiful or that...
4 tags
I am starting over.
I don’t want to make the same mistakes I have made before. This blog is going to be personal, and 100% me.
I just hope people will enjoy it…
xoxo
Z